keeping simple

Ever wondered why people always go back to the old familiar things, people, environment ? is it because we are sentimental or is it because of insecurity? familiarity gives us a cocoon to wrap ourselves in, its safe and there's no risks of hurt, or even if there is, at least we may have developed some immunity against it..

I think for me, old friends=simplicity..there's no need to extensively deliberate on what I should do, because they will understand your peculiarities, there's no need to second guess their actions because they are who they are..

I like the simplicity in friends where we can casually suggest places to go and things to do and then we just do it..

I like the simplicity in friends where he or she is just a phone call or sms or msn away..

I like the simplicity of friends where I can suddenly pop a question, be it crazy, or stupid or serious or funny and then get a response..

I know I had missed out a lot on friends and all the lovely things which i could have enjoyed and also bring to my friends.. the friendships which I could have developed further are sometimes mellowed because I couldn't accord the time and energy to cultivate it.. the so called simplicity in friendship which I yearned for is at times out of my reach because of my studies, family commitments, family's protection and control and now my work commitments..

I tried to get to know my newer friends and in a way, trying to compensate for whatever I could have missed out when I'm younger..but having new friends is not all that simple.. some friends had been saying I should work less harder, get a life and enjoy, but cold water is at times poured on me when I decided to come out of my shell and initiate things to do.. don't underestimate organizing small gatherings, it can be frustratingly difficult..

I love my old friends..they may not be with me 24/7 or I may even see them once in a blue moon, but if they ask me and I can make it, even if its just meet at the kopitiam for a drink, I'll be up for it, simple as that.. no need to consider so many things, like did I ask the right people to join, did I ask in a correct way , must I ask a group of pple to go or can I just ask one person to meet etc etc..

Should I just turn to doing things alone again? frankly, I'm not afraid to do things alone, but I will be extremely happy to share some moments with friends.. I take pride in that if I want and offer to spend my time with someone or a group of pple, means I really treat he/she as a friend sincerely and with great appreciation, I feel he/she is worth it and I will enjoy his/her company, really,its as simple as that, 1+2=3, not some complex algebra. I enjoy simple things and I hope I can bring simple enjoyment to my friends. Hopefully, with some more effort, I will get that appreciation back :)